"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Do not allow personal fears to hold you back from your full potential. Life is bigger than trying to let others feel comfortable. Simply Be Yourself.

What is Perception?

It is one's opinion and interpretation of ones surroundings. How do we perceive the world? In what ways am I imposing my own experiences in my judgement of others? I seek the clarity of who I am and where I am going in order to live the life I truly want to live. I seek Consciousness in all levels of my life. I seek to create For ME.

So what must we be in order to become that dream? Who must I be in order to reach my full potential and give all I can give to the world? I must be open, caring, responsible, passionate, loving, vulnerable, couragous, proud, confident, driven, visionary. I must find my inner light and let it shine through, and get past all of the judgements and criticisms I have had about myself. What conversations have I been having in my mind, where nobody else can listen unless I share it with them?

As I reflect on my past, and how I used to be... or maybe still am... I realize all the people I held at arms length. I wouldn't let them into my comfort zone and allow them to truly see and celebrate Me. The fears and misconceptions I have keep me from seeing further into myself. What am I so afraid of?
It is time to face the realities of my life. As cliche as it is, you only get One life to live. Instead of clinging to Ideas about what life is and how I should live it, I should simply be Living as I want to live it. When it comes down to it, at the end of my life, it is me looking back, not anybody else. This is hard for me because I have the perception that I should not be selfish and do things just for me. I feel like I should be able to be there and help everyone else. But how can I expect to do that without knowing myself and helping myself first? It is not selfish to live the life I want to live. It is simply Human. And we are all human, brought to this earth of mysteries together to share our love and our hopes and dreams. To grow together and create together and push the mind forward into further and further dimensions. Because to Be Human is to have thoughts. Conscious Choice. Conscious opinions and decisions. We can feel sadness and joy and success and dread and all these emotions. We can share together and communicate. We can envision for ourselves. We can intellectually and emotionally push ourselves to reach the highest achievable limits of our own minds. They say we only use 10% of our brains. That's only 10% of our capacity to experience, feel, taste, recall, create, and move forward. My hope is to tap into the other caverns of my mind and bring forth other potential emotions, intelligence, Living. To Live is to breathe, reproduce, consume, grow. But to Live is also to be fully aware of my surroundsings, my beliefs, my power, my experiences, my emotions, my potentials, my right-brain music activity, my passions, my intelligence, my hopes and dreams, my LIGHT. To give this Light and share it with others is something I will consciously seek on a daily basis. No matter the cultural or socail contexts of an opinion or action, I must learn to stand up and show the glowing spirit that is within me. I sense it, I can envision it, I can feel it. I can feel the connectedness of each and every person I meet. But in order to keep that feeling, that vision, that connectedness, I must tap into my own light much more strongly that I ever have. I must truly realize these truths, and truly face my past experiences that Are holding me back. I must BE the person I want to be. It seems like such a simple concept, and the average person may not see the issue. But when you truly get down to your core, peel back the layers, and reveal an experience, I begin to realize all of the other things that surround that experience, that "EVENT". I begin to realize how little I Truly Understand. What do I have power over anyway? Can I control my own thoughts? To an extent I believe it is possible. But what are these inherant things in which I believe? Where did they come from? Somewhere in my life I had an experience that shaped each and every belief and value that I hold to this day. Do I cling to these events and these beliefs? Or do I allow myself to step outside of the actual life experiences and find something beyond.... is it seperate? Was I perfect the day I was born, and I implied ALL of these values on myself? If I give up my life experiences though, I am left with what? A body that has a mind of confusion. Must we create ourselves from scratch? It's like the analogy, the phoenix rising from the ashes. I must Burn it all down before I can be born anew. I wonder if it will be true rebirth, or some mock experience. I want to face these things and create myself anew. I want to be able to get beyond all these limitations. But what can I expect from this process? The most far-fetched ideas that I have do not come from no where. How does one reach that clarity? I know I will face many break-downs. I will face MYSELF each and every day, and I will face the people in my life who may or may not accept these changes in me. But it is My life. I fear they will see the real me and not want to get to know who I really am. I fear not liking the person I am inside. But why would one fear what they are? We must thuroughly know ourselves. It is a process that will lead to a greater consciousness. And I can envision my mind unfolding into the universe, grasping things I never though possible, envisioning extrordinary lifetimes that have been lived or have yet to be lived. I envision myself perceiving time as an opportunity. Or understanding it as a linear or infinite process. Is this moment meant to happen just like this, and is it happening at the exact same instant as that moment ten moments ago, and does that previous moment influence this moment? To what extent can we escape all our previous moments of life? So many questions, I simply must face them with ANSWERS.

To be at peace with oneself
Is to know oneself thuroughly, without selection, without bias, without hesitation.

So take the leap. Explore the mind and its stretches. How far can I stretch? Infinitely. I must take on the belief, instead of hope, that I can create this for myself. I can get a handle on it all, and FACE everything that matters or doesn't matter in my life. I can express with extreme Freedom. I can reach my goals and Live my dreams. I can have it all. I can also share it all.

A Mind so Full it wants to spill out every miniscule detail and see it in a new light. Light up the life inside of each and every one of us. And never let it burn out.